Before I Hit the Hay (edited)

Life would be so much better for me if I had my babygirl with me. I admit I coped in the completely wrong way...but I did lose everything at once and that domino effect is still going. It really sucks to feel literally all alone in this world. It's Christmas Eve as of right now, and although everyone thinks I came to the Sacramento area to get away from my aunts crazy boyfriend who beat me up I am here for 2 big reasons: (1) To see Kaycee and (2) To spend Christmas with my family. ALTHOUGH, we are hardly celebrating it...At least there is presents underneath the christmas tree and I get to spend it with my two dogs: Ty and Shadow. It was so awesome to see Ty. I know I'll end up blogging later because right now I'm just thinking about how badly i want my daughter and how I wish my aunt would listen to me. You can't run away from a police informant, and I hope he rots in hell. He's a psychopath. I really want to bring awareness to how some police departments are corrupt. They won't arrest him because he's an informant and tells the police of the little guy drug dealers in town? Seriously? He can beat woman and break into hotel rooms and that's fine for that. Hell no, but raising awareness would probably get me killed. Just saying...Merry Christmas Eve Everyone...

"Kaboom" Nail Design

Tips with a full polish on 5th Finger

The special Nail polish used in this design was Kaboom by Salon Perfect that is only available at Walmart. I highly recommend it, it's cheap and I think it looks really nice.

21st Birthday Nail Design

That is a yellow cupcake on my Thumb (Yellow is my favorite color), Red wine classes to represent my favorite alcohol, and then 21 on my 4th finger. Took a lot of time and patience, and YES, I am aware it doesn't look perfect.

Pictures I Feel Like Sharing, Thoughts, and Good Morning Quote

It's Christmas so I'm thinking of my Dad...RIP Dad. I wish you were here with me right now...I know I wouldn't be feeling as much hurt as I am right now...please watch over me and give me strength. I'm thinking of Kaycee, I just want to be with her right now and it really sucks that I can't have her here in my arms right now. And last but not least, I'm thinking of him. He who broke my heart, who I still love, and who I still wish I could be celebrating Christmas with. XOX.

He who has not Christmas in his heart, will not find it under the tree.

Said by: Roy L. Smith

Throughout life people will make you mad, disrespect you, and treat you bad. Let God deal with the things they do, cause hate in your heart will consume you too.

Said by: Will Smith

All men's miseries derive from not being able to sit in a quiet room alone.

Blaise Pascal

I miss you so much.

And with that being said, I am getting off the computer. I don't even need to get started on how much I miss him along with my Dad and Kaycee. I will use up all my space on this blog. Merry Christmas Eve everyone! I will probably post later on. XOX.